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This may fall on deaf ears but if you care.

Journal Entry: Mon Nov 9, 2009, 7:59 PM
  • Mood: Emotional
  • Listening to: Poker Face. YES I DO LISTEN TO GAGA
  • Reading: Sang Spell
  • Watching: Fullmetal Alchemist
  • Playing: Nothing in particular
  • Eating: Ate
  • Drinking: DIET COKE


Lately I've been feeling exhausted, I'm tired physically and mentally. I'm also emotionally in debt, bankrupt. I haven't got anymore to give and I don't feel like any is coming in. I think it may have to do with the rigors of marching band, school, homework, and horses.

.........I want some people to understand somethings, it does not seem to me that they really comprehend what is and has been happening, I suspect these people know what I'm talking about. It is NO fault of there's!!! But when you are betrayed by someone you trust alot and have know since birth it stings it BURNS, and burns leave scars big nasty hurtful scars! I can NEVER let my guard down, because something will come along and bite me in the ass hard. I never get away lightly. I'm tired of getting burned, send me a note and I'll tell you a tale. I'm not going to say other people don't have a tale also, nor that their life is perfect.

I know I seem cold and hard assed, it really isn't you it is me. I'm in truth afraid, and I don't even want to take the chance of getting burned again(even though I will inevitably). I do the things I do for a reason, I just want you all to understand that. I never do something without cause or act without reason. I guard myself very carefully and the few times when I have slipped have been when I have gotten hurt.

I am a serious person and when I make a commitment to something I stick by it. Some of my dear friends (who I do love) seem to think I'm obsessed without cause. It is not an obsession, it is a LIFESTYLE CHOICE!

I love my horse, I really do she is my friend and never yells at me calls me names, she comprehends more without words than people can with words and I want to convey this to people. I'm an artist of movement and sound. I dance with my horse My art is my Horse, when you paint with colors I paint with Passage, leg yield, and canter, perfecting the balance and shape in motion. I want people to understand this and what it means to me.

And this is to a specific someone who needs to get her shit together, because I'm sick of the drama, I'm sick of it surrounding me, my friends, and my general life.

In short, stop trying to "fix" me and telling me to "get over" things, because there is a rather large possibility that you don't have the whole story and don't understand the extent of the "burns", and I know that I DO NOT UNDERSTAND EVERYTHING IN OTHER PEOPLES LIVES!!!!.

Any hate, bitching, bastarding, rudeness aside, will be reported and flagged as spam, and possibly blocked form my page.

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  • Print preference: PAY ME
  • Interests: Books, Art, Music, Japan, Getting the hell out of America Trying to find a decent soul and partner.
  • Favourite movie: Moulin Rouge, Elizabeth The Golden Age, Queen of the Dammed, No reservations,Forest Gump
  • Favourite band or musician: Fiona Apple, Nightwish,Jethro tull, Yeal Neim, Three days Grace, U2, and LIke a Billion others
  • Favourite genre of music: Everything except pop anything and country
  • Favourite artist: Silver Flute Studio (mine) Squiditha Studios
  • Favourite poet or writer: Myself then Stephine Meyer,C. Pallonie, C. Funke,Greg Maguire, P.C Cast, Clare, Garth Nix,and300more
  • Favourite photographer: I am no longer sure
  • Favourite style of art: I can do It allllll
  • Operating System: Mac HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA tHATS RIGHT
  • MP3 player of choice: Ipod
  • Shell of choice: I am a turtle
  • Wallpaper of choice: Full moon
  • Skin of choice: No color
  • Favourite game: Living in the world, Taking souls, and wishing for blood
  • Favourite gaming platform: What I don't play video games!!!
  • Favourite cartoon character: Mr. BANANA
  • Personal Quote: If people are going to call you insane why not get the whole benifit of it.
  • Tools of the Trade: pencils caffein colored pencils inking markers voices in my head muffins Blood sweat gore

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Comments


:iconfukuplz:
Thanks for the fave.

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Apparently I'm homophobic because I don't like seeing men kiss.
I also don't like seeing Elephants bump uglies so what the fuck does that make me now?
:iconlongkaiduan:
Sure Thang.

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If people are going to call you insane anyway, you might as well get the full benefit of it. BITE ME, cause I bite back.
:iconcool-thing:
Thanq 4 faving on my confusing comic >w<

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The reasonable man adapts himself to the world. The unreasonable one persists in trying to adapt the world to himself. Therefore all progress depends on the unreasonable. - G. B. Shaw

Thank goodness I'm unreasonable :phew: - C-T
:iconaneros:
Thanks for the watch.

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A fool forgives and forgets, a wise man forgives but never forgets.
:iconlongkaiduan:
Not a problem ;)

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If people are going to call you insane anyway, you might as well get the full benefit of it. BITE ME, cause I bite back.
:iconaurora-aliaska:
thank you for the favourite, Kailot!

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I reside in my own little wonderland, somewhere within my mind. So as you all are dying from the bubonic plague, I'll be eating chocalate and hanging out with zombies. :heart:
:iconxusagi-chan:
Kyleee ~
I'm very upset. ;w;

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... Maybe, some fanart?
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:iconlongkaiduan:
What why?

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If people are going to call you insane anyway, you might as well get the full benefit of it. BITE ME, cause I bite back.
:iconxusagi-chan:
Maybe it's stupid to you, but,
I decided to get my flute back out and play it again.
But, I can't find my flute books... and I don't remember the notes. >.>
Yeah stupid I know, but I was like, "AW, COME ON ."

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... Maybe, some fanart?
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:iconlongkaiduan:
YOU CAME BACK TO US!!! *hugs you*

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If people are going to call you insane anyway, you might as well get the full benefit of it. BITE ME, cause I bite back.

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